26 July 2011

How to #42: Be me

Task 1: a biography
Jana Reynolds – a written version, thus far.
Due to recent events, this biography may highlight aspects which may otherwise have been less prominent. While the instruction was for a biography, this is also an autobiography about a girl that has always been average.
My brother who is 2 years older than what I am was asked by his pre-school teacher what his name was on his first day of school; he did not answer. Later my mother asked him why he hadn’t told the teacher his name, because he obviously knows his own name.  He replied:  “Mamma, ek weet nie of my naam in Engels Martin of Mêrtin is nie.” We were sent to boarding school in grade 1, 2 hours away from the farm we grew up on in the Karoo. Being older, he could remember my little younger brother and bared more of an effect from the accident. I now only see the effect of it more vividly on my family. 16 years later.
Primary school is a blur of first crushes, lessons, disappointments and hostel mischief with friends. Being prefects was the highest mark we could aim for. We were seven close friends, but in 2005 four of us were to go away to better schools for our high school career. By matric only two of them matriculated at Union High school.
High school saw definition of individuals through friendships. Many teenage mistakes were made, hearts were broken and bathrooms were flooded.  Michelle became the embodiment of sisterly love for me. Christelle faught for and stood up for, cried with and laughed with. Not to look like a teenage song, but age friend out of our group of ten played their own part in providing drama, laughs, tears and life lessons.
And there were boys, so many boys. Those who we pointed and laughed at, those who we wanted to impress and those who swept us off our feet only to leave us on our backs to be picked up by our friends. But how can friends pick you up when they are hurt.
There are aspects of belief and hope and love form above. Love that my parents give my brother and I, love they give to what they do, and the people who help them, and love they give each other. My mother has had to be so tough and my father has been made so fragile.  They try to understand when advice is needed, and they try to lead my brother on his journey of choosing the turn on his road of the future, and they try to make sense of my drama, but they were raised in a different time.
The next step in this process is University where one has to find yourself. New friendships once again have to be built and the future is a constant itch in the back of your mind. But then love is found and all is sent in a lovely mess of uncertainty.
These people make me who I am.

How to #41: Sit for 3 hours

How to #40: write

Weekly class reflection
#1:
I walk in wondering what may come of this, as the previous tutors told us that they felt that teaching the art of creative writing is a near impossible task. I now feel that this class is maybe not there to teach us how to “write creatively” but rather inspire us to embrace our creativity. I feel almost threatened to be around other people my age who have a passion for writing, because I always felt like it was mine alone. But I’m excited to learn and share.
We were given letter by other authors asking for crit from other authors, to teach us about the learning process that lies ahead for us, and the aspects that are important when writing.
Hale asked us to describe ourselves as an animal, and somebody else told an idea more or less like mine, but I did not feel bad, because I felt in my heart that that was my answer. Sometimes in these situations students just agree or adapt someone else’s answer as a safety. I wanted to answer the question first, but didn’t want to be ‘that one’ because, I predict a lot of my participation in this class, which is weird. I’m usually rather quiet, with respect for the lecturer.
I answered the question with a comparison of my life as a bird. When I was young, I was a chicken chick, just one of the blind group, doing what as to be done, but all the other little ones around me are ducklings. This was up until about grade 6. From then, and right now, I’m part of the homing pigeon group. Some with pretty feathers, some flying a bit better or further than others, but in the end, we are still a dependant group, that makes a turn back after a long a difficult turn.
In the end I wish to be an eagle. I purposely do not elaborate on this.
As homework, next week we have to bring our own 1 page long biography.

How to #39: Stay strong

Going through a rough spot at the moment, but im signed up with a creative writing tutorial as part of my English course this year, wich is inspiring me alot, and will get me back on my blogging. I have decided that for a while, i will post the work that i have to submit for this class as homework as my blog entries for a while.

How to #38: Find something to hold on to

(Some) Lyrics to The Stars Fall Down :
Trace my face while it's a happy face
When my smile fades I wanna remember this day
Passion killed by the comfort of time
I'm sorry if this makes you cry, but I have to speak my mind

Suck the colours from my eyes
When they lose their sparkle and forget to shine
Remember all the times you turned me down
I'm sorry if this hurts your heart but where's the spark, from the start?

Don't stop, don't stop
Nothing lasts forever soon we will be sober
So let's laugh, talk, tickle and taste till the stars fall down
The stars fall down

Embrace my reflection for a little while
For if I am to love I must try love myself
Cuddle with a cold corpse like frame
I'm sorry if my view of matrimony seems obscure, where's te fuel?

Don't stop, don't stop
Nothing lasts forever soon we will be
Sober, illuminated by the blood red sign
Let's rather lament on this starlight event

Dance, dance, dance naked under starlight
There's something about this glow that flows just right
Let's make tonight last forget about the past

So let's laugh, talk, tickle and taste till the stars fall down
The stars fall down

Don't stop, don't stop
Nothing lasts forever soon we will be
Sober, illuminated by the blood red sign

Let's fantasise before the real world comes
Crashing and colliding like lightning's angry temperament
Bubbling teenage love time will soon be up

Don't stop, don't stop
Nothing lasts forever soon we will be sober

Trace my face while it's a happy face
When my smile fades and I'm old and grey
All I'll have are these moments to retrace
Trace my face while it's a happy face
When my smile fades I wanna remember this day
Passion killed by the comfort of time
I'm sorry if this makes you cry, but I have to speak my mind

Suck the colours from my eyes
When they lose their sparkle and forget to shine
Remember all the times you turned me down
I'm sorry if this hurts your heart but where's the spark, from the start?

Don't stop, don't stop
Nothing lasts forever soon we will be sober
So let's laugh, talk, tickle and taste till the stars fall down
The stars fall down

Embrace my reflection for a little while
For if I am to love I must try love myself
Cuddle with a cold corpse like frame
I'm sorry if my view of matrimony seems obscure, where's the fuel?

Dance, dance, dance naked under starlight
There's something about this glow that flows just right
Let's make tonight last forget about the past

So let's laugh, talk, tickle and taste till the stars fall down
The stars fall down

25 July 2011

How to #37: be strong



sometimes the right decissions are the hardest to make...

03 June 2011

How to #36: Embrace yourself



Naomi: I was a weirdo. I thaught that the moon followed me everywhere. I thaught it meant something special was gonna happen to me
Arthur:  Well that’s a pretty ridiculous hypothesis Naomi because by that notion, the moon would be out there right n... Naomi, the moon is literally out there right now spying on us. His light shining down on your face and clutter... what is all these things?! Smitwitifs...
Naomi: My dad’s pills
Arthur: a lot of incriminating stuff lying around here young la... what’s this for
Naomi:  that’s nothing, put it...
Arthur: whoa whoa whoa this is not nothing. This is something
Naomi:  I used to write stories and draw pictures for kids.
Arthur: wow... “The statue of liberty had travelled all the way from France She missed her friend the Eifel tower and her arm hurt...” Naomi, that’s wonderful.
Naomi: Thank you
Arthur: In this the statue of Liberty is a lonely French giant...
Naomi: Yeah, and she stays lonely until she meets her friend, the Chrysler building
Arthur:  That’s brilliant Naomi. You should quit your job and focus all your energy on this.
Naomi: I can’t
Arthur: why? What have you got to lose?
Naomi: The house, and electricity...
Arthur: you can pay for all of those when this is published.
Naomi: Arthur, things like that don’t happen to people like me.
Arthur: Then why is the moon still following you?

02 June 2011

How to #35: Appreciate

Ek het nou vir ‘n lang ruk al nie geblog nie, om dat ek eintlik, om die waarheid te se, ‘n bietjie hoop veloor in hierdei projek… Mens moet realisties wees, en ek kyk so daarna… As ek nie self lees nie, hoekom sal ander mense wat baie soos ek is dan die goed lees ?! Maar dan gee ‘n vriendin my ‘n kompliment, of vra hoe dit gaan met my blog, dan kry ek weer hoop.
Ek gaan steeds hulp kry van die groot ouens by Mfm, maar ek het net so ‘n drang gehad om weer te skryf, al is dit redelik bol… :D
So... Ek wil bietjie youtube videos update.... Fetish met die briljante The Lonely Island deel met jou.
Ek kan  vertel dat dit voorentoe lyk met mfm werk... my pa word elke woensdag wakker om te luister en vir my raad te gee. My co-host is briljant en ek word geinspereer deur haar entusiasme, en sy help my as ek baie erge spel voute maak, wat ‘n totale realiteit is... ha ha.
Die vaksnsie le nou voor hier in Stellenbosch en ek begin nou worry oor nagraadse programme, want volgende jaar kry ek my grad... scary! Ek voel nou kwaai oud!
Ons is besig om ‘n trip by die weskus af te reel vir die vakansie maar ek is bevrees dat daar nie baie mense is wat game is so ver nie, want ek bly t ever in die middle van nerens... dit suck. Maar tenminste gaan die vriende front nou al afdraand, en dis fantasties. Ek verlang net nogal na koshuis soos ek dit ken. Nie ‘n oomblik stil in my en Mich se kamer nie. Mens kon altyd Stella se lag gepaard met Mell en die ander girls iewers hoor. Hierdie setup is so geisoleerd. En daar is niks lojaliteid aan die koshuis nie. En ek is regtig lief vir die koshuis.  Dit bring my na ‘n klein  problempie wat my pla... ek weet nie of ek moet prober staan vir koshuis HK nie, om die girls te inspereer om life te wees vir hierdie huis van ons, of ek net moet trek na my eie flat, wat wonderlik glamourous klink, want ek is na 15 jaar baie opgewonde om huis huis te speel...
“moet nie die lewe dink nie, Leef die lewe.”
Daar is hoop

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11 May 2011

ON A SERIOUS NOTE

My sincere apologies are in order since I have neglected my blog and those who believe in me and support me.

Writer in training on search of inspirational inspiration. Back shortly.

In the mean time, please enjoy the following.  

Song of the week, but i guess it becomes of the month snce i'v been gone so long...

http://youtu.be/qMxX-QOV9tI

series of the... like, next 2 months!!! epic! im totally gonna steal Parkers hairstyle!! check it out... Leverage

and hopefully the aids to my insparation loss... im gonna ask Lincoln and Willem, who are both amazing presenters at Mfm, for help with getting my blog to life.